really not liking this whole, getting used to being alone again thing, but, oh well. best get used to it now, it’ll be like this for a Longgg time.
i mean, theres no sense in trying to find a relationship with someone or trying to keep in contact with friends when you’re away as much as i am. its gonna be best just to live alone, by myself, and leave it at that. i’ll just end up making it hard for my friends to keep up a relationship with me anyhow, with how much im never here, so in the end, i’m really doing everyone a favor if you think about it. i’ll just leave everyone alone, and they’ll be a lot happier that way. :-) besides, who would want to be friends with someone who acts like they’re Old like i do?! i mean, what 19yr old Doesnt want to party and have a job that they can take the weekends off to hang out with friends?! seriously, for me, its either stay in this lifestyle, and home, and keep all that i have, and have no social life, or change jobs, sell my house, and move somewhere more affordable, and have a life. so basically, its all or nothing one way or the other. and if i switch now, i lose everything. so im just gonna stay where im at, and deal with w.e. comes with it.
idk… maybe this time either the depression will win, or i’ll just finally get over it.
You know what’s ironic? I’ll never be the one who’s missed. Maybe if I’m dead, but only then; if then.
Jealousy, stabs the heart, only to be replaced by anger and hate.
Time to go on, smile like nothing happened. All’s well for the world if they don’t see the darkness.
cute chick who doesnt like to answer anything unless its the call ahead phone at Outback, well, doesnt seem to like to start anything either.
i think im going to just stop trying to talk to her. shes clearly not interested in me beyond the fact of im someone she can get a 30% tip at work from. so yeah. ending that ordeal.
Singledom is probably best anyhow.
Nobody to disappointment, nobody to get disappointed by.
Nobody to hurt, nobody to get hurt by.
Just me, myself, and I.
(Damn, I seriously have to get back into writing; this is ridiculous.)
Dear cute chick who continues to play hard to get and wont answer my questions,
i think you should just say yes, have dinner with me, and THEN just keep playing hard to get. i dont mind playing, but the longer you make me chase after you without any sign of gaining ground, the less likely i am to keep chasing, especially after as long as we’ve been at this.. like i said before, its just dinner. no guarantees of anything else. just getting to know each other, and enjoying a meal. nothing more, but, also, nothing less. K? Thanks.
The best part right now, is that it only hurts a Little bit every time I see something about them together, rather than a lot like before. 10 points for time.
i should just stop talking… shouldnt i? i said i’d be silent, so, i keep trying to do that. see how it works. its hard though cuz, i want to talk, but, it never goes well… so i’ll just try to stop.
Don’t wake me - Skillet. This fits everything So perfectly right now. Wow. Like, Exactly how I feel. Every word.
I thought I was Done with this shit God damn it!!!!! I’m sick and fucking tired of not being able to think of anything else!!!! Fuck!!!! Andre, you’re just not enough. You’ll never be enough, never have, never will. You’ll always do the One thing that ruins what you have. Get Used to it! There’s always someone who can do it better than you, and who will unless you do the impossible and step your fucking game up! So just get used to being alone. You will be the rest of your pathetic life Anyhow. So just do it right or just fucking quit. Period. Got it asshole!!?! … Fuck!
